I started self-harming at 13. For years it was my go-to for any overwhelming feeling — a secret crutch that led to many severe episodes and multiple psychiatric hospitalizations. Gradually I made small changes that made life more manageable, but urges still come up; I’ll probably always be a person who needs to manage cravings. I’m not perfect or “cured,” I’m in recovery — not a destination but ongoing work: learning gentler coping skills, unpacking why I turned to harm, and facing the grief, guilt, shame, isolation and emptiness it left behind. Over time I found deeper reasons to keep going: building a sense of self, pride in growth, and joy that outlasts the temporary relief of hurting. I’m here to listen, to explore what your journey looks like, and to support whatever steps you want to take — or simply hold space for your triggers, urges, and pain.