The most surprising thing I realized through therapy was burnout, struggling to complete tasks, and the inability to start on long-term goals was not a problem in the sense that I have no discipline. It is a sign of long term burnout, and rebuilding from it takes steps and introspection, not just a two week vacation. It was freeing to realize this, because I thought I just was disorganized and hopeless. I realized I had not always been this way, and it hadn't really set in until after years of being the top student, then employee, then leader. I couldn't say when I had breathed fully at ease last. The world is so heavy that there are days I falter, but this too needs to be a part of the balancing plan you make. I can help you ask yourself good questions to check in with yourself, and build up a plan that centers you AND your goals and dreams, without utterly exhausting you. It will balance your to do lists with self care & self knowledge.