I had never really known secure attachment or healthy relationships until early adulthood. When I met my partner of 7 years I was surprised because I had never experienced this type of safety and love which also meant it felt unfamiliar and scary. Our first couple of years were tough and I developed relationship OCD and anxiety. I experienced a lot of recurring doubt around being with this person even though he was willing to work through everything and was incredibly patient. I had also only known relationships where this is no conflict and everything is swept under the rug. All of the sudden our conflicts were on the surface and I was convinced I couldn't be with someone who I had conflicts with. We have found our way and though no relationship is perfect we have built a healthy foundation which feels like a big deal after many toxic relationships in my past.