My whole life I have moved with and through fear, childhood trauma conditioned and led me straight into an abusive marriage to a obsessive controlling narcissist suffering through incredible abuse consisting of physical, mental verbal, sexual, financial and extreme control of every aspect of my mind body and soul . In that marriage producing 8 children who also suffered various forms of control and abuse. I found myself isolated and broken in so many ways, not only alienated on a farm in Ohio states away from my hometown in California with no family no support I was disconnected from myself, my voice my power and my identity as a woman and mother I was broken in so many ways unable to show up for myself and my children. But there was an unbreakable resilience deep within me that slowly began to rise. A knowing a force a purpose revealed through a strength of faith and determination to make my life matter and to help other women rise up and reclaim their power.