I've always been the type that had to learn everything the hard way. I've always wanted to experience the extreme in life and because of that my life became extreme. Yes the things that I went through were horrible, but looking back now as a survivor, honestly- it's not a bad thing I went through them. I used to be so close-minded, aggressive, judgmental and quite frankly very dark. My life has never been boring and the energy I drew into my life was even darker. It's in the darkness though, that you find your light. I know that the universe heard me cry from the mouth of hell, reach down and pulled me out because It knew I'd be strong enough to turn around and reach my hand in to pull just one more out hacksaw Ridge status. I'm the only one in my family that never enlisted but fought a hard war here on our soil. I know what it's like to live without people you never wanted to live without, to lose hope and give up, to be invisible, homeless and pregnant and in addiction. We do recover.